Now that my mission is over and I have "adjusted" back to "normal life". I feel like I need to start blogging again. I am on a path to self discovery. The past six months while I have remained silent on the blog, I have found myself in the fun stage of life where I am trying to figure out adulthood.
Yes, I got a taste of it my first year of college. (Which I all but flunked out of... But that had a lot of stresses attached that I'm not dealing with anymore) But now it's time I put on my big girl pants and start figuring out what I want to do with the rest of my life. But I know I can't do it alone. If there is one thing I learned from people watching, it's that I need a village. And there is only one way to find you village. It's to go where you feel like you belong.
I have always had the opinion that you don't go where you don't belong, or feel like you do. And it's that reason why I find myself back in Cincinnati. It's not because it was my first choice. By far not my first choice. It's because right now, in this stage of life, it's where I belong. It's where my village is. It's where I need to be for this adulting phase. And more importantly it's where I have been told to go.
When you follow that God, or your higher being tells you, things work out. Because I listened to the spirit I was lead to a wonderful, and trying, job. I be starting a program through a college out west that gives an unprecedented tuition cut. And I have the support of a village behind me.
Do I feel like I have it all figured out? Nope. Do I feel like things are falling into place? Why yes, yes I do. Do I feel like things are so out of control that I'm loosing my mind? Absolutely. But that's all Adulting really is isn't it? It's like a baby just learning to walk. We take a few steps and fall back down. And the village around us is who cheers that we took a few steps.
What we all need to remember is that Adulting is trying to take a few steps. And we'll still toddle around for a few years after we start walking. But that's the fun of it. Reaching out, branching out, trying to figure out who exactly we can become. This stage in life is the time we can be the boxer, the dancer, the mom, the worker, and have really nice cars. It's the time we learn to balance. It's the time we learn to grow again.
So what will you choose to do while you're Adulting? Will you make it an excuse when things go bad. Or will it be your excuse to have adventures?